Overwhelmed

so much has been going on i barely have time to get on the internet anymore! but just thought i'd jot down some quick thoughts before my laptop battery dies....

i've been feeling so completely overwhelmed with God, His calling and anointing on my life, and what He wants to do in and through me.... we were at the prayer meeting on sat. night and i pretty much just bawled my eyes out the whole time. i was just so desperate to give God my EVERYTHING you know? i just want to live for Him. that's IT.

and we pray "we want more of God," right? and i was trying to pray that, but something inside of me was like, "God, i don't know much more i can handle of you! i'm almost scared to ask for more.... i just don't know how much more i can physically and spiritually take!" not out of anger or frustration, but i've been feeling like i'm a cup that's filled to the brim and shaking, tempted to tip over, but i'm scared.... i mean, what happens when i overflow??? interesting thoughts.... lots to ponder....

God is so good and He's been making a way for me.... His favor in and on my life is so evident.... even in my singing. He's used the most unexpected things to bring Him fame and glory. so amazing. people want to know my name and who i am, and if i'm trying out for the worship team or not.... and i literally only sang 1min worth of music.... and i wasn't even trying or "worshiping" necessarily.... i was in "competition" mode LOL anyways, God is incredible, honored to serve Him, and i'm off to an adventuresome week!

classes start tomorrow. we'll be at UW in the morning and then coming back to the dorms for our classes. please keep me in your prayers! thanks! :-)